A Fresh Start

This year was suppose to be a big year for me; the year I turn 40.  I made NY resolutions, as we all do at the beginning of the year, with things I wanted to achieve. 

The first half of the year was great, I felt like I was achieving what I set out to achieve.  I was losing weight, enjoying exercise, doing higher duties at work which gave me a new found focus (once the shock wore off) for working.  But then I had a knee injury, which set me back weight loss wise.  Looking back I was just lazy, I didn’t do any exercise, even though my Dr gave me options.  I had hyped up turning 40 into some sort of life changing pinnacle and I was disappointed that things weren’t turning out the way I had planned.

I’ve turned a corner recently. I’m in the process of attending a Future Leaders program at work.  I was nominated by my manager, and although I wasn’t particularly keen on attending, I felt obligated.  I thought it would be boring and I actually didn’t know if I wanted to be a ‘future leader’ in the organisation I work for.  I have an awesome work/life balance, working 9am-2.30pm each day, so it fits perfectly into my family life.  Becoming a leader would involve working full time hours and I’m not sure if I want that.  The Future Leaders Program has had a HUGE impact on my life, the sessions we have done on Positive Thinking, Building Resilience and Finding Purpose in Life have made me re-evaluate my life.  I’ve also made some discoveries about myself, I put so many things off and don't try new things, due to fear of failure or it’s too hard or I don’t believe in my ability.  My conclusion is I have limited/no confidence in myself to be successful and I find that really sad. 

So, now I embark on a new chapter in my life.  I want to achieve thing and try new things and to hell if it’s doesn’t work out or it’s not for me.  At least I’ve tried.  I don’t want to reach a point in my life and have so many regrets.  I’ve really struggled and felt unhappy the last few weeks and most of it boils down to how unhappy I am with myself.

The things forefront in my mind at the moment:

J Eat Fresh and limit processed products

J Get back into the exercise I love…..I love bootcamp

J Get my family eating more healthy and exercising

J Don’t be fearful of trying something new

I've not been much of a blogger in the past, but I'm hoping this will be different and I'll try and blog every few days.

Love

Janey

xox